self development

working on ones self is always a challenge. You want to change. Deep down you really do. You want to become the best person you can be. You don't want to let people down. Yet I must be the most successful person at letting you down. I want to make everyone happy so I don't make me happy. When do you say screw it? I'm going to do for me what needs to be done? At the same time I don't blame anyone else. I'm scared. I am afraid to live. Being kept within the house has restricted my interaction with all the things I dont want to do.. but now I am at loss. I am scared I might fail. I will give in to things. I know what some people will say when they read this... but I don't want anyones two cents. I don't want to hear any of that. I just want support. No pressure.

I am starving. Madison just engulfed this lunchable thing. She inhaled it at a ridiculous pace. I am thinking cinnamon bagel... i wish i had defrosted some sausage because that sounds bomb. ooo i want to bake so bad today. Maybe I will find a recipe and whip something up... psh can you say failure in process?? i can!